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UPDATE: 2-16-007
Well it is valentine's day. Time to take stock of my life.
Sometimes I think I could just sleep through my whole life. As though I would be a zombie, going through all the motions of my life, eating, shitting, driving, smoking, etc. but I would still be asleep the whole time. I've slept through movies I snuck into max capped for a midnight primiere. I've slept through live concerts. And I slept for three years straight on the couch around the turn of the millennium. So why can't I sleep right now? I'm exhausted. I am awake for twenty two hours I fall asleep for three hours. Awake again for another twelve hours I then sleep four hours. Now I am awake, and a total zombie. I lean my head back in my chair while I am typing and close my eyes, fading into Nine Inch Nails.
It poured rain today out of nowhere, and now, in the early evening, the sun is starting to come back out. I need to go buy cigarettes, but other than that I should have no problem holing up for another day or two drifting in and out of consciousness. I drift like a bouy. My breathing is laboured and I sigh constantly. My legs go numb from the knees down and I completely lose sensation in my feet. All I do all day is sit around on them. Every forty five minutes I stand up bandy legged and, brushing against first one wall of the narrow hallway and then the other like a cow in a cattle chute, I make my way out to the front door for a smoke. I am addicted to smoke. I wish I could turn into smoke and blow away.
Unfortunately for everyone, I do not. Instead I perch on the precipace of the abyss and spit and scream and cry and beat my chest and scream some more. There is no echo. No one comes to rescue me. No one ever answers back to me. I am alone on the precipace of the abyss. However suddenly I will look up from this daydream and realise what I am doing at that moment. Often times I am out with friends when I slip into the dread and loneliness that tugs at my heart from within. Most recently I was at a concert with some friends of mine. They were all standing around having a good time, getting sloshed, having scintillating conversation and enjoying the music. I sat in a shadowy corner, fifteen feet away, and I was crying. I wept and wept and wept sitting there silently. I couldn't even ascertain why. It simply flowed out of me and I could not stop it. Within an hour I felt as though it had never happened. Sometimes the dread and loneliness grabs me when I am trying to go to sleep.
Those are the most difficult times. I am thrown about by violent muscle spasms and I flipped upright to pace the front porch, wrapped up in a blanket and suckling on a cigarette. I remember all the hard times, and believe me, compared to them, this is nothing. This passes. This is bearable. "Just a little sorrow," as the song goes. The melancholy of experiencing physical and emotional existence one layer beneath what you intellectually know to be the true level at which you should be able to function all the time is paralysing, and it seems as though everyone else is moving in fast forward. Such times I slip back into my own mind, and let my consciousness go to sleep while my autonomic nervous system goes on living my life for me. I have a life that is lived out for me by a robot body that is on automatic pilot while I am asleep at my own controls. I watch A Scanner Darkly and am strangely not phased by it one bit. I pause the movie to go for a smoke, stand up on numb, bandy legs, careen down the hallway like a wino, and stumble out to rasp away my final breaths nursing on nictoine, sucking a cigarette. Nothing makes any sense anymore.
Am I up or down? Am I floating towards the surface or am I sinking under for the last time? I honestly don't know, and what's more, I don't think I care anymore either. I am beginning to believe in "digital reality." In analog reality, you have uniform decomposition rate for the storage medium itself. Thus, on 8-track or betamax, nothing on tape was permanent. However now that information can be stored in infinite transparent data layers that can then be projected in a consecutive stream, all via electronics, the next step will be quantum computers running probababilistc programmes written in triniary language. However for now, we exist in a digital mediated reality, and this means that, rather than uniform degeneration of data quality due to ageing of the actual storage medium itself, the only changes from one data frame in the stream to the next are the individual areas of motion within the overall frame. The rest remains static, and thus this conserves some of the amount of data that is being projecting in the consecutive stream. So, in a "digital reality," there would be some substances that were more solid, more permanent, and some that would be less permanent, softer substances, and there would be some emotions that would be too hard to overcome and there would be some impulses we would not even consciously notice, all because some small areas change more in the short term, while all the rest, though perhaps more gradually, is bound to completely change eventually.
Therefore, some things change faster than us, and so we can perceive them changing, while other things change slower than us, and so we cannot perceive them changing. That is digital reality. The reason we do not seem to perceive this simple fact is that it, itself, is never-changing, and so, to us, we seem to change constantly. Our minds are always slipping into one line of reasoning and out of another, and, unless we concentrate on our own thoughts, our stream of consciousness seems fragmented and meanders here and there. So, if we seek to see from the point of view of something that is more permanent than us, we slip out of this more fragmented, meandering stream of consciousness, and then we come to perceieve that, which we have always identified as our own, stream of consciousness as alien and autonomous. If, at this point, we "snap back" to the fragmented and meandering point of view for our way of thought, we will see the more permanent as transcendent to our mundane reality, and assuming that point of view ourselves will seem a distant and self-alienating concept. However, if we maintain the notion of our self concept as something that is unchanging from one moment to the next, we are able to choose to maintain any line of reasoning for as long as we want before "switching" to another, and if we maintain the notion of our self concept as something that is more permanent over what we would normally consider a truly vast, great, immense duration, then we begin to see the fragmented and meandering way of thinking as alien though, rather than above, beneath us. It becomes something subject to contempt. This latter form of thinking is called "prayer," and the more constantly one is at "prayer" the more able one will be to read others' minds.
In digital reality, ESP is explained simply as intellectual empathy. This is similar to "sympathy," or "symbolic" empathy, in that both are Thelemic: the Will is the Law Above Love, however while "sympathy" proceeds from the mind to activate an emotion in the heart, the opposite is the case for ESP, or "empathy," in that it begins in the heart and then follows as a way of thinking for the mind. Empathy is heart-felt and genuine, while sympathy is psychological, the super-ego imposing conscience over the id. ESP does not follow necessarily from sympathy. Sympathy instead tends to generate a symbolic exchange system with which to allow conscience empathy to be conveyed to another. The best example is giving money to the homeless, though it being Valentine's day today, giving chocolates to your lover springs to mind as well. The difference between such "token exchange systems" as money or such fetishes as chocolate and true ESP is that ESP changes one's perception of reality and way of thinking, while sympathy, or symbolic empathy, merely allows one's physical perception of the self to continue. Sympathy is an important part, therefore, of modern survival, however ESP does not necessarily follow from sympathy, as it does from empathy, because there is no need for true heart-felt compassion that arises from a reality that uses physical symbols for emotions.
A digital reality is based on both "empathy" (the more permanent and unchanging aspects) and "sympathy" (the more immediate, urgent and real areas that change daily) both. To graph digital reality, we would alot one portion of an area to "change" and another to "no change." The portion of "change" would be labeled "symbolic empathy," which would mean the immediate necessities for survival in our present physical reality, and the unchanged portion would be labeled "intellectual empathy," which would mean the existence of fixed emotional states through which our intellect passes, thus causing the appearance of its thoughts as fragmented and meandering to itself. Once we realise the "unchanging" portions of digital reality are really our emotional perceptions of static ideal forms in a higher temporal dimension, then we have achieved "intellectual empathy" or ESP.
What is the difference between "symbolic" and "intellectual" empathy?
"Symbolic" empathy, sympathy, does not require emotion, and thus there is no need for the basis of self-examination and philosophy. Symbolic empathy creates a symbol, that is, something that is not something else, but is meant to make an observer think not of the thing that itself is, but to make them think of the something else that the thing itself is not. In other words, a symbol is a lie. It is not meant to mean what it seems to mean. It is meant to mean something else, usually the opposite. Sometimes, "no" means "yes."
"Intellectual" empathy, ESP, depends upon self-knowledge as the introspection into the causes for one's emotional experiences. One's psychology, so long as it remains the seat of the self-concept, will defend itself against any inquest or attempt to unravel its origins. Thus, psychology itself creates and sustains the perceptual necessity of physical survival in material reality. While this is useful, to achieve "intellectual" empathy, one must finally realise that the psychological experience of emotions is only a point travelling paths along the edges between more fixed, permanent, static and unchanging areas, shapes, patterns or archetypes. So long as we see our emotions as a defense-mechanism against any inquest as to their origins, we will not be able to intellectually understand our psychological perception of them is dependent not upon our "symbolic," material survival but on a priori and invisible patterns such as temporal cycles.
Essentially, the difference between "symbolic" and "intellectual" empathy is that symbolic empathy is the product of a self-centred use of the emotions as a defense-mechanism, thus active definition of the exterior reality, while intellectual empathy is based on the selfless understanding of our emotions as the foundation for our experience of reality, thus passive definition by exterior reality. The result of this difference is that sympathy needs to create lies to survive, while empathy allowed to exist for itself enables us to experience ESP. This is because, while sympathetically we assume what others think, empathy allows us to see through the eyes of, and to feel the experience of, another, and thus to know what they think. Because this includes emotional identification of the self-concept with the other's perspective and point of view, we can more accurately guess what they are thinking than if we simply "put ourselves in their shoes" by imagining what we would think if we were them.
In short, you can only read someone's mind accurately if you allow yourself to care for them autonomously from your own projection of yourself onto them. This does not mean that you have to "have feelings for them;" it means the opposite. You have to allow your feelings to come from them, and this means "switching off" your emotions for them. Allowing yourself the true experience of someone else's emotions is the first and most difficult step toward accurately reading their mind.
Now, once you have mastered allowing yourself to feel the feelings of another, then you will be able to "pray with" them. This is the second step to reading their mind, and the third step is actually being able to know what the other person is thinking. To "pray with" someone will determine if you are "reading" their mind, or if you are "over-writing" their thoughts with your own commands. The former will allow you to truly know what the other person is thinking, however the other will only result in codependency, where each person will require the immediate physical presence of the other in order to be able to survive. This latter case is retrogressive, because it necessitates symbolic communication between the physical forms, i.e. lies, and thus creates an a priori "token-exchange" system between people that becomes a requisite for their survival. This makes regaining true ESP take much longer than if it can be avoided. This is accompanied by feelings of helplessness and loneliness that cause further clinging to one's current situation of physical living. These compound with interest over time since they are lies, and lies tend to multiply.
The reason that empathy is hard to come by in material reality is that allowing oneself to experience their own emotions, let alone those of another, is considered dangerous to one's own psyche. The source memories for most emotional experiences are considered too different from polite, "dinner-table" conversation and western business cultural morés, and it is actually more polite to discuss the private lives of dead celebrity porn stars than it is for their adult victim to "confront" a childhood sexual abuser. Thus, the kind of selfless empathy that follows from the "cathartic" acceptance of emotional origins as beyond our control, which actually allows us to control our emotional course of action more maturly, is called "paranoia" by the institutional establishments on individual human psychology. In truth, "paranoia" has the immediate implication of fear, while true ESP does not confine itself exclusively to the experience of this single emotion. Therefore, if you go to an official representative of the institutionally established schools on individual human psychology, and you tell them you can "read their minds" they will tell you you are being "paranoid."
On the other hand, the first step of "praying with" someone, even such an establishment official, is establishing what can be called a "psychic rapport." A "psychic rapport" is the true meaning of the sefira Binah, which means "Understanding." If you first develop an "understanding" with someone, then you can approach the next level of shared experience with them, which can alternately be called "prayer" or "wisdom." The difference between the self and the other is overcome immediately upon the exchange of the terminology of "I am" for the terminology of "we are." This is commonly called "knowing where someone stands." The longer or more intensely someone maintains the focus on themself and the other in the immediate here and now and does not expose their actual motives, the more uncomfortable the situation will become. Whoever causes the other to reveal their personal beliefs first establishes a form of psychic dominance over the other person equivalent to that of a master to a pet animal.
In order to overcome the time-consuming misunderstandings between people that result directly from the confrontation between two private individuals, and in order to allow them to exchange their goods and services in spite of not wishing to reveal their personal opinions and beliefs and thus appear socially submissive, the "token exchange system" was created which allows people to fill pre-established roles of social dominance that differ per situation and to communicate false self-identiifications between one another without violating these social dependency roles. Basically, western business culture has evolved from the long history of western civilisation from the very moment of the invention of writing and the trade from one of the first authors of the letter they invented and another. Because of the invention of a symbolic way to comunicate by these first human writers, now we can exchange money for goods and services without ever even looking one another in the eye.
If you want to "pray with" someone you must both overcome the obstacles presented by the "good intentions" of this symbolic "token exchange system" to prayer in the first place. That is why the first step is being able to achieve the prolonged mental condition of empathy, that is "prayer," yourself. Then it will be easy to find someone else "on the level." When one begins to "pray with" someone else they will know they are doing it because they will be paying more attention than usual to the other person. This means they will have broken, partially, temporarily or casually, the social roles established for them to maintain anonymous dominance and submission. If this has been accomplished due to mutual submission than a "psychic rapport" or "understanding" is possible. If this is the result of one person breaking the other person's psychological borders down by overstepping their authority role, then the information delivery mechanism flows only one direction, and the effect is psychic domination, or mind-writing. This is the condition that is feared so much by the common person to be a direct effect of any emotional involvement at all that they do not allow themselves to lower their boundary barriers even when someone else is obviously lowering theirs. Such a person is considered a negative stereotype not because they are uncommon, but because they themselves create this negative image as disinformation about themselves in order to confuse any opposition to serving their agenda and helping they, themselves, maintain dominance over the rest of us, who fear and loathe them.
However, because this negatively stereotypical myth of the mind-writing psychic dictator is perptuated by those who fit that description themselves, then we must wonder if this description is really a true reflection of their inner self-image behind the mask of their personality. It is much more likely that no one wishes to become such a psychic dictator, entirely dependent on material culture and a life full of lies, but that this condition naturally results from the opposition to it that it causes, thus spreading itself like a virus or a tumor, feeding on its own fear-inducing self-loathing, and that it arose in the first place as a condition of simple shyness and not wishing to let down one's personal boundary barriers. Thus, if there is not trust on one end of the equation, then dominance will arise on the opposite side of the equation. This is a simple equation: if one person does not put their cards on the table, but holds something back, and does not show their full hand, and if someone does not play the hand they were dealt, but attempts to "cheat fate," then the result will always favour the person being cheated against internally to the psychology of the person who is not being totally forthright. This effect is called "guilt," and so we say that "success is the best revenge" and "misery loves company" both mean "an eye for an eye."
In other words, if you put your trust in someone who does not put their trust in you in return, you will assume a position of inferiority in their eyes. They will disdain you, and rub your nose in the fact that they think they are outsmarting you. They will manipulate you until you have no self-esteem left, and then they will try to be completely and totally rid of you. This is called a "power trip" and it is basically the back-bone of western business culture. If anyone has ever had anyone exploit them, it increases the likelihood they themselves will then turn around and exploit someone else. All this is called the "cycle of abuse." According to the "cycle of abuse," boredom follows the "honeymoon phase," and that abuse follows boredom, and that indifference and neglect follows abuse, and that the "honeymoon phase" follows indifference and neglect. If someone is abused, they will turn back to abusing someone else. If someone gets off on a "power trip" their survival will immediately become dependent on telling lies. This is quite rightly a negative stereotype, and it is quite right for those who fit this description should be the very ones disseminating it. It is unfortunate, only insofar as it is ironic, that this is what causes them to grow more powerful, and that self-loathing feeds on itself.
In any event, the point of this exposition is not as an exposé on the relative evils of what is, in truth, a naturally occuring psychological condition. The purpose here is to reveal what the result is of letting down your emotional-defense mechanisms with someone who is also doing so to you, and who time proves is not doing so only as a subterfuge to manipulate you into revealing your own private motives. If you can find someone to put your trust in who is worthy of your doing so, then you can establish a psychic rapport with them. The only way of finding someone worthy of putting your trust in is to lower your defenses though, and it is not an easy process, because you must learn to keep them lowered too, even in spite of being repeatedly hurt. Eventually you will find someone worthy of your trust, eventually you will find out if they are worthy of your trust, and eventually you will learn what it is like to both trust one another. This is the second step toward ESP: after you have established a "psychic rapport" of mutual trust, acceptance and understanding, then you can begin to "pray with" one another.
The third step of ESP is accomplished when you accept this as a universally generalisable principle that is applicable and accepted as across the entire board. You realise you are not alone, outside the group of trust worthy individuals, and tormented only and always by your own self-betrayal by living a life of emotionless objects and lies. Then you will realise that it is not yourself, as a moral individual, who were in the minority of one, yourself alone amongst a world entirely otherwise comprised of evil monsters, but that you are instead welcome and accepted into a group of loving, kind, caring and trust worthy individuals that comprise a much more vast majority than you ever even dared dream possible. This is what is meant by "prayer with" someone, because to "pray with" someone once, for the first time, means you will always be at prayer in your own mind forever after that. It is an irreprable and irreversable process, yet one necessary both for the ultimate develop of the personal being and for the perpetuation of the contributions of the self to society. Gaining ESP is, therefore, similar to losing one's virginity. These events are not necessarily contingent upon one another, however, although they are often confused with one another in "coming of age" rituals.
The first time that you "pray with" someone, that is, that you successfully establish a psychic rapport with someone worthy of your trust by lowering your defenses long enough to find and test them, that is the last time that you will ever be completely alone in your mind. The second that bridge of non-verbal communication contingent exclusively on prescence is established by an individual with another as an act of mutual choice, then there will never again be possible for that person's heart, in this life, to know the same level of loneliness, of alienation from self-transcendence, or to experience the same level of callous indifference, to live exclusively on lies, as if they had never known the experience of ESP, however had they continued on in ignorance, they would have remained blind to the fact that their apparent contentment with such a life constituted true and final "happiness." That is why taking the third step to achieving ESP is so daunting: because the challenge of facing the threat at the end of the second step, the threat of submitting to or of becoming a psychic dictator over another or others, requires the presence of someone to be there with you to support you following the victory over that impulse within the self. It requires that you remain in the trustworthy relationship, even if not with that person, than with the world itself, that they have validated for you. You are not pair-bonded to the person who introduces you to the world in which trust can be rewarded, as you would be in a codependent relationship with a psychic-dictator, because you trust each other to be able to be apart from one another in a way that codependents and liars cannot. This trust of one another, once tested thus, even if only once ever, opens the mind to a world in which such a deep level of trust is entirely possible as part of the experience of being alive shared by all. That is why to "pray with" someone by overcoming the temptation toward "psychic dictatorship" and a "power trip" even once allows us to thus exist perptetually in a mental condition of "prayer" or acceptance of constant ESP, telepathy, and the ability to accurately read minds.
Only when you realise that you can read everyone's mind, and that, all along, anyone who wanted to has been reading your mind as well, and can continue to do so, and that this is actually desirable and can be rewarding in a way even more real than tangibly, then and only then are you truly able to accurately read other people's minds. That is true ESP. It is really quite easy to experience all of this, and this sort of "extra-sensory" perception does not automatically equate with the "sensory-overload" of "paranoia." There is, ultimately, absolutely nothing wrong with experiencing constant ESP, and it is actually incredibly good for one's spiritual well-being. The results of changing one's perception thus are that one's karma, that is, the quantum probabilitiies, surrounding us in our aura, or our immediate field of effect, will reflect this true elevation of the inner state of being. If you believe that you can read someone's mind, and you believe they can read your mind, and you exchange information on this purely non-verbal level, then you will be more likely to react to one another as though you had, in reality, exchanged that unit of information. Likewise, if you are alone and you call for a sign from God in Heaven, then surely a sign shall appear. However, the God of love is the God who loves life, and so His signs will all be alive. Thus, when you feel lonliest, someone will feel sympathy for you so much that they will become like a messenger-angel sent to you from God Himself. For that person is only a symbol sent to you of God's love for you. God's love is true empathy, for He knows all our thoughts at all times, but His messengers are all merely symbols of that themselves. These are the "goyim" or the "chattle" or the "manifestations." They are simply those who have not yet been awakened to the truth of possibly universal ESP.
You can try to awaken them, but this can only be accomplished on a one-on-one basis. There are those, even among those of us who have learned how to have true ESP, who advocate inducing a mass extinction of these people in order to thin out their numbers and make them easier to deal with one-on-one. These people believe that there are fewer of those of us who have developed ESP than there are of those "chattle" who have not. They, thus valuing their perceieved scarcity of our type, look down at the rest of humanity who, they believe, outnumber them, and thus outnumber all of us who have ESP. Of course, the rest of us know that there is only one larger group, that being both halves of digital reality, or the visage of God, both the "unawakened" and the "shining," both those who maintain the ever-changing activity of the material lie, and those who have found the eternal realm of ideal forms above the temporal cycles of our emotional experiences. To us, it does not even matter if we are the "majority" group or not. All that matters to us is our own individual experience. Not that it matters, but the majority group is, in truth, comprised of those of us who hold just such a philosophy: we have ESP, but we do not care about the "politics" of how to handle the mass aggregate of those, also of "us," who do not.
It should also be noted that the group of "psychic dictators" is the same as the group of those of us with ESP who advocate mass extinction for the "goyim." It is through no true fault of their own that it has been their experience that the "goyim," their mindless slaves, desperately want to die, even though this experience is based on their preconception of the "mindless slaves" not as people who should be set free, but as essentially equivalent to any other item of inanimate property. Psychic slavery is, from the point of view of psychic-dictators, more common than even the negative sterotype of the psychic-dictators themselves, and that is, again from their point of view, all too common already. In truth, the number of all those of us who have ESP and who are not psychic dictators, combined with the number of all those of us who do not have ESP, far outnumbers the number of only all the psychic dictators alone. That is why "mindless slaves" are always those to die while fighting the wars between "psychic dictators."
From the point of view of the "unawakened" and the "psychic dictators" both, the entirety of "digital reality" is comprised exclusively of these, their own, two factions. They do not know about, and simply will avoid any truthful evidence of our existence, those of us who have ESP but who are trustworthy and are not psychic dictators. We simply do not feel the need, most of the time, to make ourselves known, either as individuals to the "chattle," nor as a group to the history maintain for the "chattle" by their "psychic dictators." As always, the petty bourgeoise, the anonymous-authority role-playing, power-tripping official representatives of the institutionally established schools on individual human psychology, spread the dictate dujour that any knowledge above normal is dangerous. So long as we conceal our additional knowledge, they leave us well enough alone. They, themselves, cannot read our minds, as we can read theirs. Instead, they expect us to write their role out for them as clearly as we possibly can using the symbolic pseudo-identities of the "token exchange" system. They are merely slaves sent to us, as I said, as messenger angels from the God of the living, that is also the God of love.
Yet I tell you, the living are not all that is in digitial reality, and there is a love higher than even that which can be experienced between us while alive. In life, the "psychic dictators" control the "unawakened," however in the afterlife, the "psychic dictators" do not advance, but return as "unawakened" who, once awakened to their latent ESP, become "psychic dictators" again. They do not progress until they let go of their need to be "psychic dictators." The "unawakened will all, eventually, have awakened, and eventually the only ones to remain "unawakened" will be the last of the "psychic dictators," and when they have finally ceased clinging to the need to be the last dictator alive, and they have all been awakened, then we will have all progressed to the next evolutionary step of consciousness. Of course, some of us, most of us in fact, are already there.
It is later in the life of our universe than we think. Already super-massive black holes have consumed the most distant galaxies, all of whose stars would have burnt out long before the light we see from them now is reaching us. Beyond the layer of these super-massive black holes there is only the clear light of tachyons. This level of the universe is equivalent to the level of active consciousness projected onto the realm of the other. It surrounds the local universe with baby universes in n-potential alternate parallel dimensions. Beyond this multiverse of n-dimensional baby universes is the singularity inside of which our local universe is only one of n-dimensional baby universes, along with all the others in its interior multiverse. This singularity is nine dimensions away from the central-point of consciousness, inside the formal system of reasoning (who, what, when, where, why and how), where fact and fiction intersect between the poles of had and not. Inside this first dimension and beyond this ninth dimension is the tenth dimension, the tao, or the medium in which the mind of the self and the other truly exist, with the other nine dimensions comprising the physical and the psychic media between one and the other.
So, we see that the shared realm of the mind of one with another is from the utmost imaginable perspective one can have for themselves. Thus, between them would be the entire multiverse of n-dimensional baby universes that would form the entirety of each awakened person's perspective of digital reality. Because you would have two perspectives (spheres of influence, one "changing" one "unchanging") describing one larger sphere (the entire digital reality) you can express this relationship between these two individuals as a hypersphere. The hypersphere, or fourth-dimensional sphere, is comprised of two identical spheres that overlap to form a third sphere, identical to, but comprised of, both the other two. Thus, the sphere of one person and the sphere of the other person are equal, and both describe the entirety of the multiverse. Therefore, both are, inside, outside of the entire multiverse merely looking inside, outward, at its contents. That is the root of understanding ESP. If you see your eyes as the surface of your mind, then you can hold your breath, and duck below that surface, and turn your head about, and see that there are other people all around you doing the same thing. The "unawakened" call that "dissociating," and label it a form of paranoia-induced "hysteria." The "awakened" call it "waking up."
The "psychic dictators" over the "unawakened" and the "chattle" describe other meanings for the words "prayer" and to "pray with" than I have employed here. They advocate "prayer" as an isolating experience, where one lowers oneself below the most insignificant speck of nothingness one can imagine before a "God" that is already held to exist only at an inconceivably vast distance away. To "pray with" other people, they enforce with brutal violence, is only possible in the confines of specifically appointed locations at specifically pre-appointed times and there is terrible bigotry between the groups that meet at different locations and times from one another. Therefore, there are very different definitions for "God" accepted at these different locations and times by these different groups of people. The goal of the group of "psychic dictators" in their international conspiracy is to consolodate these different definitions as much as possible into one single symbol, and then to destroy that symbol, and thus, with it, crush the hopes of the people. For now, that symbol is the currency we exchange for goods and services. The consolidation of the definitions for the "God" of the unawakened by the conspiring psychic dictators into the single symbol of currency is accomplished by the message of their ministers, those who guide the groups that meet at the different locations and times, during their "prayer." Thus, the true definition for "prayer" at this time is actually brainwashing, however we who understand the true meaning of prayer beyond its current definition as liberation will understand my intention in the use of that meaning for it here.
The reason I have been talking so much about ESP is that I want to talk about True Love, and I believe True Love to be irrevocably intermingled and tangled in together with ESP. First let me address the names of the three shapes atop the three pillars, and the names of the three pillars. The names of the three pillars are, on the right "physical laws of nature," on the left "spiritual laws of ideals," and "ethical legislation" between them. The top of the left pillar says "who" and the base of it reads "why." The central pillar reads "how" at the top and "what" at the bottom. The right pillar reads "when" above and "where" below. One pillar is doric, one ionic and one corinthian. On top of the doric pillar is a triangle; on top of the ionic pillar is a square; on top of the corinthian pillar is a pentagon. The pentagon reads: Life," the square "Love" and the triangle "Light." These are the three pillars of legislation that derive from the Formal System of Metaphysics model of the six fundamental questions of reasoning. There, therefore, is my reason.
Life, as defined in this arrangement, is the where and when of our existence, the co-ordinate location in space and time. Love, as defined here, is the how and what, the karma yoga, or labour-union, that fluctuates between the pillar to the left and that to the right. Light, thus defined as the pillar on the left, is the philosophical consideration of who and why. Who we are determines what we can do, and that determines why we are here. Life is the physical, material reality of our existence in the here and now. Love is the rising kundalini and the overflowing karma of our aura. Light is the spiritual, philosophical, ideal experience of religion, including the entire gamut of emotions.
Now, as I'd mentioned, one name for the experience of ESP, or perpetual mind-reading, calls it "shining." In that its illumination is invisible to the naked eye, this radiance may only be hinted at by that name. Thus, ESP is the Light. Likewise, the traveling back and forth between the realm of Light, the realm where ESP is an everyday occurance, and the realm of the physical material existence, where survival is a constantly distracting necessity, is called True Love because it runs upward and returns downward. It does all this in the shape of a torus and the measure of the torus is phi/pi. In truth, the exact measurement is phi squared divided by pi, which is equal to a number on the fractal replication pattern known as the "natural" number, that occurs in quantum mechanics as the value known as the "fine structure constant." In short, Light, Life; phi/pi, the torus; ESP, true love; "psychic dictators" and the "unawakened;" the Formal System of Metaphysics; and etc. all refer to perspectives from different points of view at different angles to one another, but they are all seeing and describing the same event. Ths event is, in short, digital reality, the changing and the unchanging. Insofar as He is self-aware, God is greater than digital reality, and God is self-aware only insofar as all of us, his sentient entities, are aware of the entirerty of digital reality, which means seeing from the supposedly subjective points of view of one another as psychic beings.
I honestly believe in True Love. At this point, I use the word "believe" because the odds are stacked against such a thing being possible. I believe that True Love is the same thing as Love at First Sight. If you see someone for the first time, but it is like they are familiar, but you can't place from where, and if you both seem to feel this feeling, and so you "hit it off," and from there you go on to being in a relationship, this is not merely a strange coincidence. This is divine providence. According to my belief-system, this is the first, and most convincing, evidence that the two people who fall in Love at First Sight are Soul-Mates. The fact that they seem to recognise one another immediately indicates that they know one another from the pre-mortal existence which is also the same as the afterlife. Before we incarnate we exist in Heaven, and after we die we go back. It is more common than seems to be currently thought that pair-bonds exist in heaven, however it is rare that these soul-mates spend their incarnations together, or even meet one another, because they generally incarnate for reasons other than their love for each other. Often they are on missions from God to fulfill some personal contribution that only God Himself could fathom the necessity for, and more often than not, pair-bonds in heaven choose to work apart from one another while alive in order to keep their focus on the purpose for their incarnation. The goals of God for sending our souls down into bodies from the eternal realm of pure spirit are ineffable even to our souls. They are rarely for purposes humankind would consider "great," such as to cure cancer, and are almost always important only to the individual development of that soul, such as overcoming an obstacle that seemed to them to be insurmountable, such as surviving cancer. Because the journey of the soul is such an individually unique experience in almost every single case, it is extremely rare for the one eternal spirit to manifest into two immortal souls that would be in love while alive in the flesh. Two beings would have to be extremely in love already to fall in Love at First Sight. They would each be like a mirror of one another, and together comprise a mirror reflecting the visage of God, for their love for one another is really God's love for Himself in the form of these, His creations. Of course, there is no way to logically prove the existence of God, since it is a personal experience only, and likewise, it is impossible to explain the experience of being in True Love to someone whose experiences with the emotion of love have all resulted in only pain and sorrow. However, just as we can realise for ourselves the reality, or at the least the workability, of God, it is possible for such "star-crossed" True Lovers to fall in love at first sight.
Now, True Love is not dependent upon ESP, however the existence of ESP is dependent on the possibility of True Love. In other words, if True Love were completely impossible, then all that I have said thusfar to explain the mechanisms of ESP would not be feasible, and would only be the gibberish of someone whose mental health is degenerating by the moment. So, True Love can occur without ESP, but ESP can only follow in a world where it is possible for True Love to occur. Basically, if no one anywhere had ever even once experienced Love at First Sight that leads to a lifelong pair-bonding, that is, the expression in life of True, eternal Love between Soul-Mates, then anthropically it would not be possible for anyone to have developed the ability to empathis with one another, and therefore, no matter how intelligent we could evolve to seem, we would never have understanding and thus never possess wisdom, and we would never have ESP. Of course, this is not necessarily the case, and therefore the likelihood of it being the case in actual reality dimminishes exponentially as a result. Instead, the more likely scenario describing our "digital reality" is that those who believe in True Love can experience ESP, while those who do not cannot.
This is the literal interpretation of "Love Is The Law, Love Under Will": that Love, and thus the entire spectrum of other emotions along with it, precedes the capacity for will-power that occurs when stimuli overload the nervous-system that perceives them. The cycling through the full range of all possible emotions and all their possible hues of permutation and recombinations builds up the will-power until the time to act occurs, and then the full amount of that will-power is utilised by the conscience mechanism of the consciousness. Thus, Love Precedes Will, however Will tempers and controls the flow of emotional energy.
For Love to be considered objectively verifiable and thus accepted as True, it must prove that it is truly tempered by the Will, and this means the "breaking of the free spirit" by commiting to the socially defined perameters of a relationship. This is commonly manifested as a pre-nuptial agreement, that is, the agreement over financial compatability tested by living together as an egaged couple. Once this compact is tacitly confirmed, then the ritual ceremony takes place, one of the rare overlaps of church and state in all society.
However, True Love, insofar as it precedes, and thus exists independently of the necessity for, ESP, does not depend on man-made rituals based on a "token exchange system" of symbolic empathy in order to exist. ESP, that is, insofar as it breeds "psychic dictators," is only one side of the same coin the other side of which is the "token exchange system" and the economy of social-roles and lies. Society is all one big lie dressed up as and meant to substitute for actual ESP. However, true ESP is founded on empathy, not sympathy, and this follows from belief in the Truth of the emotion of Love. Our experience of the emotion of love originally begins with our experience of existence while still in the womb. The womb-life creates a holographic template for the entire remainder of physical existence in the world-womb of this digital reality hologram. We define love later in life by comparing our emotional experience to our sense-memories of the experience of existence in the womb. Sharing sleep together thus allows us the ultimate empathy: to dream together, and thus to remember together the loving world we were in when we lived within the womb.
Thus, the root and foundation of True Love is not a sympathetic love that fits into predetermined social roles of dominance and submission, but is, rather, a form of experience that can only be compared to our existence in the womb, wherein we floated in a suspended animation of pure emotional empathy. Sharing True Love with someone is when both of you feel that comfortable with each other. Such people can grow old together because to grow old is like going to sleep, and sleeping allows us to dream, and in dreams together we share the warm solace of the womb-world. Sharing the life-essence in the form of ecstatic ESP and dreaming sleep are luxuries afforded exclusively to lovers.
Therefore, only those whose first experience of ESP was one of Love at First Sight, can understand that such an emotional form of empathy as True Love exists. Of course this is not everyone. It is not even everyone who has ever had ESP. Truly it is a simple enough process to gain and develop true ESP. All you must do is cultivate empathy, and learn how to love one another. When you have found someone to trust, opened a rapport, tested their trust by willing yourself to listen, rather than dictate, and finally, when you verify that your shared non-verbal communication did, indeed, occur between both of you; then you shall understand true ESP. But even those who fully understand and use ESP only know with certainty that True Love can exist, since they realise ESP, that is, the direct result of Love. They yet do not all experience it, and thus cannot, nor will they claim to, understand.
Such people care as well as "get it" as are likely candidates for True Love. Sadly, however, of our nearly 6 billion people population of earth, there may only be one other person that will ever both get to read these words and will understand them. Two people, including myself, in the entire world might actually care about all of this. And to tell you the truth, I doubt the other one cares any more about any of this than if I care about myself. Which is unfortunate, since sometimes the message is more important than the messenger.
Sometimes, even those who do have True Love must be apart, and that is the true way to test True Love. Not in a relationship as typically defined by societal roles, but separate and apart from one another like magnetic poles, and likewise opposite of one another's schedules and cycles of emotions. This is passion in passing, and it is the best True Lovers have ever been able to come by in this life. Of all the greatest lovers of all time -- Anthony and Cleopatra, Solomon and Sheba, Tristan and Isolde (Romeo and Juliet), Dummuzi and Inanna -- none of them have had but fleeting time in which to share their experience of True Love. Therefore, unlike the sympathies of the average person, the hearts of true lovers are tested by being kept apart rather than being kept together.
"Omnia vincit amor, et nos cedamus amori." Translation: "Love conquers all, let us too yield to love." (Virgil, Eclogues book X, line 69) Well, now it is late the Friday after Valentine's Day, 2007. I should porbably post this up to my frontpage blog now.
Good night,
I love you,
-Jon
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this information is all © 2007 Jonathan Barlow Gee
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